lust for life/shopping/acquiring trash

jesus! how am i supposed to save money when there are so many goodies in the world?

that LRG dead serious sweater is so cool. im just sad because they dont make it in anything smaller than a mens medium, so its our for me, but if i was cool and shit, i would totally wear it. the eyes are see through so you can zip it up all the way and terrorize whoever lies within your path undercover without them being able to pick you out in a line up. and it has a gold grill!! this is painful!

I am in love with these betsey johnson wedges. they remind me of the apartment of that rich lady in "An American in Paris." i keep trying to come up with what i can pair these bad boys with in my closet so i can not feel so bad about making this purchase. but they are so pretty i feel like i can frame them, and that would be enough. i would like to drink my coffee in the morning and just look at them. they are 175 on sale. maybe i will wait until they become 125.

i want these badly. they are tara subkoff for easy spirit and i dont know, the shape is giving me the willies. and i like it. not as amazing as those super high gladiator sandals she made from way back when that everyone told me not to buy, because they are assholes and that is the biggest mistake i ever made, but bitchin nonetheless.

i just bought this gorgeous vintage black one piece betsey johnson boustier. i hope i dont look like an asshole in it. i need to get rich, or marry rich. shit

buyers remorse

i am so excited! i just put my name on the waiting lists at two macys to get that new sparkly hologram chanel nail polish. ive been trying to make a big effort to not spend money lately, but really, as long as i pay my bills, who gives a shit? my goal is to save 200 dollars a month. i dont know what im going to spend it on, but by the end of the year i want a couple thousand saved up. i used to have lots of money saved, but i spent it on junk. im lame.

i want to save up some money to visit julia in florida come may or june, when school is over. hopefully i hit all my sales goals at the bank so i get a big bonus and i can use it for that and to go to new york with victor.

oh victor victor victor. we were talking about going to new york together again but since he paid for me last time, i would have to get his ticket and we would go 50/50 on the hotel. i would love to go to new york again. i miss it so much. all the people and the shopping. and this time i want to see ellis island and go to little italy and check out the fashion walk of fame on 7th and spend some more time somewhere rad like greenwich village. at least if we go he can never hold that over my head again. i hate that shit.

i hung out with him last week and we had so much fun. we went out to dinner and shit and had some strange experiences but i dont remember laughing so hard with him for such a long time. in a couple of months, it's going to be a year since we have been together. it's weird to even think that especially since we still hang out and i dont know, still do all the retarded shit we always do like sit on the same side of the table and snuggle and everything. i miss him so much sometimes but there is nothing i can do. i dont want to like anyone else and i cant and even talking to other boys makes me feel guilty cause i know my heart is with him. oh well. there is nothing i can do i guess.

i just get so mad cause it's like what the fuck victor. you tell me you still love me and then act suprised when i get sad about this kind of stuff. he knows exactly what he does that hurts my feelings and that pisses me off the most. i hope i see him tomorrow. ill pull his leg hair.

its raining outside and im so happy im home. i have four tests this week and i should be studying, but im thinking about doing some damage to the brownies i have in the refrigerator. the heater is on, a marathon of the real housewives of orange county is on, and ive got my fluffy robe on and my hair is dirty. so perfect. i just hope it doesnt rain tomorrow when i have to go up to la. people drive like assholes enough, but for some reason, they really kick it into high gear when it starts to rain. shit. well, back to the television like a fat ass.

we could have been so happy together

there are lots of things on ebay that i get excited about. but most of the time, nothing really takes my breath away. that is.. until i uncovered some gorgeous early 90s chanel sunglasses and a bernhard willhelm dinosaur skirt. i was so excited and ready to put myself into debt for these rare treasures and then of course, i end up getting outbid. shit!! that makes me so angry. i was looking at all the other stuff that the other bidders were bidding on, and i wanted to outbid them just to ruin their day, like they ruined mine. but i got scared. next time. gypsies




it brings a tear to my eye. i got to hang out with the lovely twins lucy and clara last night before lucy packs up and flies away to korea for six months. we had a chocolate chip calzone at claim jumper and much to my dismay, a really awful lemon bar brulee. lucy said if you email and complain, they send you a gift certificate. interesting.. and quite tempting!

my favorite song in the world right now is hong kong garden by siouxsie and the banshees. they play it all the time at betsey johnson because she used it in her fall fashion show that they play over and over again and now i cant get it out of my head. better than fergie though, and much less embarassing.

i got a call from hm the other day. interviews for part time are going to start being set up next week. im so excited. i hope i can con them into liking me. so far, so good. ive always had a way with the ladies!!!